THE BEGGINING was August 2009, after a transforming retreat in Italy. This was my first experience of actually feeling my body. Every day we enjoyed energy and warmth from the morning sun, followed by a walking meditation. We played music and learnt how to massage ourselves, which instantly brought me to tears. What a simple way to bring pleasure and love to oneself. Many blockages that I had created in my body for the previous 24 years had started to dissolve (what felt like magically explode!). And since then I have been peeling back the layers of those sleeping years, healing damage to my energetic make up and creating new thought patterns that support a more positive existence. My 89 year old mentor always says “you’re blessed to have awoken at such a young age.”
THE TIME AFTER 2009 has been progressive and far from perfect. It’s almost like being born again. Learning new ways of being, you need to make mistakes before you can master something. Usually you get sick when you are letting go of blocked energy (if you imagine it looks like invisible black muck). At the same time you can easily fall back into old patterns from your sleepy life that you knew so monotonously.
I FOUND SUPPORT in many different forms. I read books like Choosing Happiness by Stephanie Dowrick, I studied and used Aura-Soma, I joined a meditation group, which lead to Abraham-Hicks ‘Getting into the Vortex’ mediations & Louise Hay affirmations. I found wonderful support practitioners like Ami of Healing Delight and Nicole my Kinesiologist.
In these years of progression I found that different relationships tested me, I was presented with many cross roads: new job, travel plans, moving house, etc. and there’s always one thing that I could truely rely on: the expertise of my own heart.
